College has become one of the most humbling things I have ever experienced. To date, I have a failed class in my record. I have a dropped class due to failing in my record. I have too many C's to count in my record. I have "barely passed" in my record. I have failure (according this world) in my record. This is something I never experienced in my school career until I came to college.
I had nearly flawless grades all through my middle and high school years. It was a source of pride for me, a source of life, a source of happiness. There is nothing wrong with working hard in school in order to do well, it's what we should be doing. However, there is a point where grades become more important than learning, and getting the highest grade possible becomes an obsession. I didn't realize the hold that school had on me until all those things were stripped from me. I suddenly had to look at the GPA requirements for scholarships. I had to retake a class in the summer (and have another one in my future). I had to come to grips with the fact that just because I like statistics and am good at it, doesn't always mean I'm going to ace it. Just because I'm qualified to be in a class whose title some people don't understand, doesn't mean I'm going to pass it.
The satisfaction from school lasts a short amount of time. But, can I tell you about something that lasts longer than a treacherous semester? Yep, the Lord. At the start of this semester I became really consistent with reading the Word. I actually started to read and dig into it. Let me tell you, THAT is what has changed me this semester. I feel like for the first time in my life my heart is tied to Jesus. He is teaching me things that follow me longer than a D on a test. And although my grades still aren't the best, I have learned to accept the challenge the Lord has let me face.
Suggested Music -- One Million Bullets // by: Sia
Suggested Beverage -- Spyhouse Coffee
May your coffee be caffeinated,
Sarah
PS: see? I can write about more than just food :)
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